Beck Martin - Lying to myself - lyrics - (So far away - Sinima beats)

Every day I'm lying to myself pretending I don't care about you,

The fact is that I never cared bout someone more than about you;

I said so many things, wrote so many stupid messages,

I said I'll never fall in love but I did, you're so far away and I

wanna be with you so why I'm still lyin' to myself...

 

Honestly I don't know how start;

There's so much I would like to say;

Feeling I should rather stay quiet;

But can't coz you still runnin in my head;

 

You're the first girl who ever came over;

Never met someone who would be same like you;

You're someone so inteligent n great that I hate it's over;

I'm sorry I didn't want to lose you ...

 

It all felt like angel came to see me ...

I just felt gotta do everything to make sure she will like me ...

I haven't done anything that's how I felt ...

Felt like no one, walkin' shadow of someone I used to be ...

 

Everything I did while you was in was wrong ...

I wanted to kiss you, I wanted to hug you, be with you ...

I should stay with you I know, I went to work ...

I should text you while I was home, go out with you ...

 

Every day I'm lying to myself pretending I don't care about you,

The fact is that I never cared bout someone more than about you;

I said so many things, wrote so many stupid messages,

I said I'll never fall in love but I did, you're so away and I

wanna be with you so why I'm still lyin' to myself...

 

All I done was wrong, All I done caused I lost you ...

Maybe it had to happen coz now you're living better life ...

I'm so proud of you, so glad to know they love you;

I know you won't get lost anywhere, they'll love you everywhere;

 

Girl you're angel I'm sure, thanks for kick you gave me;

I changed so much can't tell you, the moments I was waiting on;

Girl you're the best I've ever met, someone who's there for me;

So why all of this went wrong, why I can't just move on...

 

Why I see you everywhere even if I'm trying to forget,

Why I'm here again writing this lyrics about you,

I think I've done enough already, why I can't forget?

Why the only thing I do everything is to be with you?

 

You was right every time, I know what you meant, now I understand;

I'm just someone who still believes on fairy tales, 

Wish to tell you everything straight away, go on drink as we said;

But we're both so far away and I can't go that distance;

 

Every day I'm lying to myself pretending I don't care about you,

The fact is that I never cared bout someone more than about you;

I said so many things, wrote so many stupid messages,

I said I'll never fall in love but I did, you're so far away and I

wanna be with you so why I'm still lyin' to myself...

 

I'm closed in my world, closed in my music doing everything;

so I don't have to think; Don't have to think about you;

I'm building my dream, fighting so hard every day for one thing;

Earn that much that I can be just with you ...

 

I wanna make it, make it big, that big I can go closer to you;

And do everything I should do already to be with you ...

 

Every day I'm lying to myself pretending I don't care about you,

The fact is that I never cared bout someone more than about you;

I said so many things, wrote so many stupid messages,

I said I'll never fall in love but I did, you're so far away and I

wanna be with you so why I'm still lyin' to myself...